When we do not feel safe as children, we adapt to survive, however, we become disconnected with our authentic self. As adults, this affects our relationship with ourselves and with others. We can become connected with our bodies and our emotions as we begin to seek healing and do not have to stay stuck in the effects of relationship trauma of the past. Important to notice signs of disconnection from yourself.
You may have broken ties or moved far away, but the ache of that parental bond still lives inside. There’s a way to heal what they could never give — by discovering who you truly are, beneath the trauma.
When we are emotionally neglected as children our nervous system does the best it can to go into survival mode in an atttempt to protect us ... Since we are completely dependent and vulnerable and unable to “fight or flee” so we go into“freeze” response where we are numb and emotionally shut down in an attempt to not feel our fear and our pain. When no one hears or listens to our “cry” we lose hope as our emotional needs are not noticed or given attention and we feel like we do not exist..Over time our “little child” part gets more frozen and “stuck” and has difficulty moving forward and begins to internalize the emotional neglect and we as adults then begin to neglect ourselves emotionally and due to lack of hope and feelings of helplessness develop a pattern of procrastination and the root is “childhood emotional neglect”.
When we were the most vulnerable and dependent and “emotionally needy(”as we all have been as children )it can feel like a cry deep in our soul when no one hears or seems to care about us. Our mind, will and emotions are what define our soul. For many of us who have been “ traumatically wounded” in childhood: the message we received was that we will not have our emotional reality nurtured or have anyone who can help us to process our emotions in a” healthy” way. You may be becoming more and more aware and of the consequences that are affecting your self-esteem and your relationships as the“little boy or girl part” got stuck in a pattern of “emotional neediness” that needs to be healed so you can move on with hope and start to. understand what is going on inside of you emotionally physically: and spiritually. You may have stuffed your emotions and are now becoming more aware of the consequences related to your childhood trauma.
The way that we learn to connect with others in our relationships is called “attachment style” .Our parents and caregivers play a crucial role i the style of “attachment'‘ we develop.. When as children those adults who are closest are unable to nurture us and be responsive to our needs then in order to survive we often “shut down” emotionally. An“avoidant attachment style” develops as a survival response to fear,, anxiety and feelings of rejection and abandonment.as there is a lack of a secure connection and trust.
Even if you look okay on the outside, walking through life with a broken heart, depression, or grief can feel like you’ve fallen and can’t get back up. You don’t have to keep carrying this pain alone. At Ronee Miller Counseling in Tribeca, NYC, I offer a quiet, compassionate space where you can feel seen, supported, and begin to heal.
Even in the most overwhelming seasons when grief suffocates, when shame silences, when God seems so absent-there is a deeper truth: the light has not gone out. You may feel lost in confusion, depression, or heartache, but scripture reminds us:” the light shines in the darkness and the darkness has not overcome it.”
